This is so super!!! hi hi  Tatsuya Ishida always have the right answers. I was thinking about this thing of being in the right moment, the last time in your life, the first love, the man of your life, love, projects, family, friends, being a nerd, geek, maybe a freak or an outsider, black&white, BLUE, traveling, memories, errors, success, money… Gosh! You know, I was so stressed that just focussed my mind into the white-matrix… In front my PC. And this Sinfest mythology thing came out: “I am EVIL&cute and JESUS will love me”.

Note: Some of my friends will disagreed with this post because few years ago I had the Monique’s profile but… Everyone changes.

OK,  I will tell you this story:

I remember that day, the day the nerd spoke to me… “Yes, smells like fruits!”.

He touched my heart and everything begun to change. I’m not an outcast inside, but I love to read devil books.

But sometimes, we can not fight our natural ways and we can’t fight the ways of others… “I don’t have a special reason to speak to you, but… I would like to meet you”.

So I started to ignore the facts and I dreamed… Maybe it’s when I went wrong.

I believe that love can change the world and the order of things. But unfortunately those things were stronger than me.

Those things were out of my understanding, I spent nights, trying to understand… Try to change myself for another and not for myself, just brought me confusion! And it wasn’t his fault.

My friends and family just couldn’t understood. Why a such beauty fell in love of a little cheesy nerd?

Life was good, with all my demons, with all the problems… He was someone amazing and sweet.

I was acting like a little girl… trying to become someone perfect for him.

There was something that he found interesting on me. I’m a very interesting girl too, you know? But he had some issues.

For a little while we shared some lectures… And I dreamed harder.

Obviously I had some projects and I use to question myself about those sweety dreams. World domination!

Then he got hurt by my destructive “love-drama tendences”…  At the end this is a common love story.

And I didn’t want to hurt him either… No matter if  we have the right to tell a story in a different way, human history it’s a sort of loop… It’s always the same shit. This time we weren’t strong enough.

But sometimes some stories are exceptions that became legends, myths or fables…  A man Strong, different and amazingly intelligent, with the power and the divine understanding, with a super protecting and caring love it’s what I need!!!  Someone like JESUS.

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Different, simple... RELAX babe!

He loves me, no matters if GOD is not agreed.